I miss MY LOVE

Tonight I felt there was something different, because the first time he was angry for no apparent reason. Sometimes I also feel he is no longer like before, what's probably because he's far from me now or there is something she hid from me. Already 6 months I have not met him, my nostalgia getting in because it was one week he had no news from him. I am worried and frightened state she now what? I realized she was now living with kedisiplinanan and strict rules because he is a member of the military. I remember once when I was still dibangku high school, he was one of the people I used to hate because she's very lazy, stupid, naughty and playboy. Almost every day I was always angry because he's silliness, friends he can always make a mess in school. He also once told me between love and hate that the difference is very thin, and I now feel it ..

One night I was relaxing at home, suddenly I was shocked because there she play to my house. Then I met him in front of the house. Then he told me he loved me, I am confused with my feelings because in my heart there is hatred. But he remains convinced me that feeling of love will grow by itself as time passes. Then I took her to be my lover, although my feelings are still hesitant and confused. But eventually, after I went through a relationship with him for two months, a sense of love is there for him. Now I believe that love is originated from hate. Tonight I want him to come and say I love you as long in advance because he did not say it. But it was not possible because it is very difficult to communicate with him. Sometimes I was bored with this kind of relationship because I was away from him. Obtaining I pray that God always protect him in there and keep my love for him. I want him to be the last for me, and could be a companion of my life later. I'll always be waiting for him to come back with a smile like that before .. I miss with my lover